7.11.2009
7.06.2009
Addicted to a Feeling
So...as of today I would have gone a week without coffee, but Brett and I made a deal that after a week I was able to get one and then I had to wait a while before I could get another. Basically, the weaning process.
Anyway, through this process I've noticed some key things. Half of the time when I walk into the coffee shop nothing sounds good and I can't choose. I always found this to be odd because my friends and family know me as the girl that loves coffee and coffee shops. It's all coming together now....the draw is more of the 2nd and not the 1st.
I got coffee today and it wasn't as good as I remember. I like the things that come WITH coffee, not the coffee itself...or so it seems. Good conversations, ambiance, warmth, friends, and fun memories....that's what keeps me going back. A coffee shop is the place where I meet a friend or friends to talk about life, God, expectations, how much things have changed....we laugh a little, we may cry a little....that's what keeps me going back; the memories and feelings tied to coffee, not the coffee itself.
I wonder what else in life I do that with...
I think I do that with the idea of 'home'. I like to go home to Arkansas because of the feelings and memories, whether it's Arkansas that I really like or not. I keep going back for the feel good....
Anyway, through this process I've noticed some key things. Half of the time when I walk into the coffee shop nothing sounds good and I can't choose. I always found this to be odd because my friends and family know me as the girl that loves coffee and coffee shops. It's all coming together now....the draw is more of the 2nd and not the 1st.
I got coffee today and it wasn't as good as I remember. I like the things that come WITH coffee, not the coffee itself...or so it seems. Good conversations, ambiance, warmth, friends, and fun memories....that's what keeps me going back. A coffee shop is the place where I meet a friend or friends to talk about life, God, expectations, how much things have changed....we laugh a little, we may cry a little....that's what keeps me going back; the memories and feelings tied to coffee, not the coffee itself.
I wonder what else in life I do that with...
I think I do that with the idea of 'home'. I like to go home to Arkansas because of the feelings and memories, whether it's Arkansas that I really like or not. I keep going back for the feel good....
7.05.2009
P.S.
Reading old journal entries is pretty telling of where my relationship with God is at the current time. Either I would directly state where it was...or based on what my topics of conversation where, it is so incredibly evident...and CONVICTING, nonetheless.
Ha, they are great to read because it is so clear that when I'm having a bad attitude, lacking patience, or frustrated about something...I can nearly guarantee my relationship with the Lord is inconsistent or non existent that day or week.
I need to keep going back and reading them...they are a good reminder of where I am versus where I should be....
I have a lot to work on.
But I like that.
P.S. i never realized how introverted i really am until this summer, i kind of like the peace of being who i am rather than who i feel like i need to be. it's very freeing.
Ha, they are great to read because it is so clear that when I'm having a bad attitude, lacking patience, or frustrated about something...I can nearly guarantee my relationship with the Lord is inconsistent or non existent that day or week.
I need to keep going back and reading them...they are a good reminder of where I am versus where I should be....
I have a lot to work on.
But I like that.
P.S. i never realized how introverted i really am until this summer, i kind of like the peace of being who i am rather than who i feel like i need to be. it's very freeing.
