Today has been terribly rough but I am going to get through it, with the Lord's help. I feel like I never get ahead, things will finally be going well, and then a new set back occurs. Today it was my car. I go to the shop to get my oil changed and my brake light fixed, simple procedure. But noooo, they always have to "take me back to look at something"...I really dread this walk. It seems to occur far too often. This time the upper radiator hose was leaking, whatever that means. All it meant to me was more money...that I don't have to spend. I am desperately trying to save for San Diego, but things keep coming up. I know God has called me there, otherwise I probably would have already given up. I think satan is trying to attack me since the Lord has great things in mind. Whenever conflict occurs, but I push through, it seems like the Lord really comes through with something life-changing.
For some reason I really let "that walk" get to me today...things keep compiling, unexpected expenses keep coming up, but I just have to keep my head high and keep my gaze on the Lord as tough as it might be sometimes. I feel overwhelmed...
5.27.2008
Hosea 6:3 "Let us strive to know the Lord..."
"...He laid down HIS life for us. We should also lay down our lives for our brothers."
Anyone who has been around me lately knows I feel stuck in the middle of transition. I am at this point in my life where soon I will have a new beginning but yet I am still lingering around those things of my past. I am trying to enjoy my present but I am just so stinking excited for my future. Forgive me if I am more complicated than usual, or if I seem to have a lot on my mind, because I do. Somewhere between leaving my family and everything I have known, my sister having a baby, meeting new people, not having a car, a fresh start...my emotions are being tugged in a million different directions and I haven't yet found the balance. I continue to pray for the Lord to stabilize my life, I feel as though I am about to topple over...Financially speaking I am also very nervous about my future. I know the Lord will provide because He has thus far, and I know He wouldn't call me somewhere if He didn't have everything worked out. I just have to continue to trust His call for my life.
